I’ve been on an emotional rollercoaster for weeks now and I finally consulted a professional. I’m really bad at preventing my anxiety from chewing a gaping hole in my stomach. Nonetheless, I’m now working a clear path through the fog of fuckery. Todd and I have been on vacation this week… guess where we went? … Continue reading Q-Day 147 – Moving Forward
Life
In a Cool, Cool World
In a cool, cool world, everything is wonderful. Young adults gather with their friends, go fishing, stand around firepits, and hang out in basements playing pool and poker and guzzling sodas. They go to the beach for the weekend, with no worries other than who’s driving and where they’re sleeping. They go back to college … Continue reading In a Cool, Cool World
I Was Wrong, But That’s Not Enough
A friend of mine has seen my recent Facebook posts, and has seen my “likes” or my “angry” responses to her posts. She sent me this private message last night. I recall you having quite a strong aversion maybe even disdain for Colin Kaepernick’s peaceful protest against police brutality on black [people] by taking … Continue reading I Was Wrong, But That’s Not Enough
Cast of Characters
This is a list of people who most frequently appear in my posts, as a sort of who's who guide for newcomers. It's going to be in a new tab at the top of the home screen. ** Tara – that’s me Todd – my first serious boyfriend and my second, but most BESTest husband. … Continue reading Cast of Characters
Minute By Minute, Hour By Hour
While the world at large is fist-fighting over toilet paper and going to the store wearing garbage bags over their heads with the eyes cut out … Veruca was pissed as all get-out that a) I wouldn’t let her go to bestie’s Quinciñera practice, and b) I kept her home from school on Friday. The … Continue reading Minute By Minute, Hour By Hour
Life As It Becomes More
The holidays when you’re 50 are much different than the holidays when you’re, let’s say, 30. I’ve had years in between where my enthusiasm ebbed and flowed. This year I was eager to get the Christmas tree and Veruca was equally excited. The two of us drove to the tree farm and there were about … Continue reading Life As It Becomes More
Drinking and Dreams
I woke up this morning from a series of bizarre dreams I’ll attribute to the chemical interaction between my medication and Goose Island IPA. About a month ago, I stopped drinking (mostly) and returned to healthier lifestyle habits. Spoiler: alcohol makes you gain weight and look puffy and inflames the joints. When I stop drinking, … Continue reading Drinking and Dreams
Things That Matter and Other Things
Today is Todd’s 51st birthday. I thought about writing a long post honoring him, but I think after the previous posts (see under “Love” tab above) it would be overkill and these days I’m feeling more private about “us,” which I’m sure makes everyone happier since people do get sick of hearing sappy and gushy … Continue reading Things That Matter and Other Things
Bad Mom
Halloween night. Veruca didn’t want to go out, so she stayed home with me to hand out candy. And then she just watched from the window. V warned me that her friends that live across the way had joked about ringing the door and dashing (these are the same 3 boys that raided my … Continue reading Bad Mom
College Boy, High School Girl
It’s been 35 days, or 5 weeks. It already seems like forever. He checks in regularly – at least insofar as I hear from him every few days but not in a predictable way. He has an on-campus job in, of all things, GROUNDS KEEPING. This is the same kid who mowed the lawn here … Continue reading College Boy, High School Girl
The Tara Chronicles 