**Trigger warning: Coronavirus, anxiety, depression, worry, despair ** I was blown away by the number of responses I got to that last post. I didn’t really want to write it or, at the least, share it. But then as I told a friend, while I wanted to keep positive because we all need … Continue reading The Breaking Point, Part 2
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I’m Okay, But I’m Not
At 12 weeks post-op, I was back to normal. I was feeling great. There’s been a lot going on in our lives lately. A lot. I’m now officially working more hours and I’m grateful. Work is where I can be normal, and not think about my personal life. I’m making more money and I’m grateful … Continue reading I’m Okay, But I’m Not
Before
T-minus 18 hours and 55 minutes, as of this writing. I’ve had multiple phone calls from the hospital to update my information, my medications, my instructions, my expectations…. All of which are designed to help everyone else do their job while my anxiety tops charts unseen since the summer of ’13. ICYMI: I’m having artificial … Continue reading Before
What’s Happening Now
Sitting down at my laptop after a rather uneventful weekend. I removed someone’s used dental flosser from my keyboard (I know – WTF???) and cracked open a rather innocuous Corona. Today’s pain scale: a definite 4. For now. And that’s what the beer is for. Pain meds don’t help, and nobody is prescribing anything stronger … Continue reading What’s Happening Now
Where I Drive In Snow
December 13. It was my mom’s birthday and Todd thought it would be nice to surprise her Wednesday, because he thinks of others and is thoughtful like that. So around 6 we all pile into my car, which has decided to be festive too and light up the engine light on the dash. It’s doing … Continue reading Where I Drive In Snow
Not Always How It Looks
I’ve had a plethora of thoughts about my next post, one of which was planned last week on a topic that has long bothered me about the business I’ve grown up in. I didn’t get it written before the weekend, and damn if it didn’t happen again and it not only pissed me off that … Continue reading Not Always How It Looks
In Mysterious Ways
It’s been a difficult couple of days. Without too many details, I haven’t been feeling well and it’s not contagious and I need to call a doctor this morning. And, like the icing on the proverbial cake, my anxiety is off the charts. Watching real-time television is not recommended during these times. Last weekend we … Continue reading In Mysterious Ways
A Series of Unfortunate Events
It’s been a pretty shitty week. Again. It all started with that damn monthly bloody mess that ruined my mojo and made me all blubbery on the eve of my son’s 16th birthday. Yeah, I know – too much information. Well buckle up, cause there’s more. It would be lazy to just say I’ve been … Continue reading A Series of Unfortunate Events
Botox IS for Vaginas. And Other Thoughts.
Okay so let’s just start with the elephant in the room. Remember that time I said Botox and vaginas do NOT go together? Well, apparently I was wrong. I heard Robin telling Howard Stern about it and of course, knowing Howard, I thought it was a joke. Except that they weren’t laughing. So I googled … Continue reading Botox IS for Vaginas. And Other Thoughts.
Meanwhile, Back in My Uterus
I’ve been trying to write something worthwhile for days. I’ve been caught up in circles… confusion is nothing new. Since Pi died, we’ve… I’ve… been wandering aimlessly around trying to find motivation to do anything. I managed to clean most of the main house earlier this week…. Vacuuming and washing floors, dusting off surfaces, putting … Continue reading Meanwhile, Back in My Uterus